http://ninosmission.com/2007/03/12/never-give-up-hope/ No Excuses! Thu, 17 May 2012 00:58:29 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.0.5 http://ninosmission.com/2007/03/12/never-give-up-hope/#comment-746278 Fri, 10 Oct 2008 19:31:31 +0000 http://ninosmission.com/2007/03/12/never-give-up-hope/#comment-746278 I had though I had a testimony and posted it...I prayed for years for my exboyfriend to come back... 12/07 my friend called him in FL., he was breaking up with his newer girl of 4 years, .to make a long story short, they spoke for months, how much he loves me, misses me, my family, can't wait to see me... then he kept saying I will be there soon, and would be moving back to NY were I live... I was thrilled posted my testomoney...I was amazed and thanked God finally after so many years. Well, I saw him for one hour in June, he had an event to go to... then his few calls to me, each time he was getting more distant (I too was afraid to push so I did not say much). The last straw, our mediator got a call from him, he was upset saying he was moving to AL his mom was dying..but I think that was his way of saying "I can't cope" the economy stock market (his living), he hated Fl. the housing market... the man was breaking down... I became anxious and wrote to him don't move to AL, I will go with you and clean and cook for your parents...I went on and on thinking I was helping, he wrote and e-mail to our mediator showing her my e-mail and said after all this time I encroached in his life, that I did not change, and it was over... of course I wrote back and said I was only trying to help don't misunderstand, I love you, miss you I only wanted to help you... blah blah... that was three weeks ago..I never heard back....where did I go wrong. I prayed for years for him and his return, I sat in empty churches crying, lighting candles, I read the bible, watched religious programs, read about prayer... for years, that day 12/21/07 I thought God answered my prayer...now I am back to crying, and praying... I love Mark, he is 53, I will be 50 in a few weeks... I dated him for 3 years when I was 41, 42, 43, from 44 years on I started my journey towards Jesus to help me... as I said I posted my testimony on this web site that I belong to for years... I beg God to talk to me, show me a sign, come in my dreams...to no avail. How do I get Mark back? Why did God give me 8 1/2 months of absolute happiness that we were rekindling... Mark saying those wonderful things, then just cut me off like I killed someone. I tried with mark...but I never really got the 2nd chance...I never had more then one hour w/ his friend there... no time to get reacquainted. How should I feel now... why did God send him back only to take him away again....now at 50 I am devastated but still pray, that is how much I love Mark... and can't give up hope, but feel hopeless. Any insight please in the name of Jesus. At times I feel I just want to die from the pain in my entire being. I had though I had a testimony and posted it…I prayed for years for my exboyfriend to come back… 12/07 my friend called him in FL., he was breaking up with his newer girl of 4 years, .to make a long story short, they spoke for months, how much he loves me, misses me, my family, can’t wait to see me… then he kept saying I will be there soon, and would be moving back to NY were I live… I was thrilled posted my testomoney…I was amazed and thanked God finally after so many years. Well, I saw him for one hour in June, he had an event to go to… then his few calls to me, each time he was getting more distant (I too was afraid to push so I did not say much). The last straw, our mediator got a call from him, he was upset saying he was moving to AL his mom was dying..but I think that was his way of saying “I can’t cope” the economy stock market (his living), he hated Fl. the housing market… the man was breaking down… I became anxious and wrote to him don’t move to AL, I will go with you and clean and cook for your parents…I went on and on thinking I was helping, he wrote and e-mail to our mediator showing her my e-mail and said after all this time I encroached in his life, that I did not change, and it was over… of course I wrote back and said I was only trying to help don’t misunderstand, I love you, miss you I only wanted to help you… blah blah… that was three weeks ago..I never heard back….where did I go wrong. I prayed for years for him and his return, I sat in empty churches crying, lighting candles, I read the bible, watched religious programs, read about prayer… for years, that day 12/21/07 I thought God answered my prayer…now I am back to crying, and praying… I love Mark, he is 53, I will be 50 in a few weeks… I dated him for 3 years when I was 41, 42, 43, from 44 years on I started my journey towards Jesus to help me… as I said I posted my testimony on this web site that I belong to for years… I beg God to talk to me, show me a sign, come in my dreams…to no avail. How do I get Mark back? Why did God give me 8 1/2 months of absolute happiness that we were rekindling… Mark saying those wonderful things, then just cut me off like I killed someone. I tried with mark…but I never really got the 2nd chance…I never had more then one hour w/ his friend there… no time to get reacquainted. How should I feel now… why did God send him back only to take him away again….now at 50 I am devastated but still pray, that is how much I love Mark… and can’t give up hope, but feel hopeless. Any insight please in the name of Jesus. At times I feel I just want to die from the pain in my entire being.

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